19 Dec Broken and Suicidal, but then…
Broken and Suicidal, but then…
What do you think about yourself? Do you feel alone? Worthless? Incomplete? Broken? Shattered? Do you feel empty? Have you thought about wanting to end your life because “no one cares about you so it won’t make a difference anyways…”? Trust me, I know that feeling! I’ve had negative thoughts take me over to the point where I had no idea who I was. To the point where waking up was a struggle and trying to get myself to eat felt impossible! I felt a weight in my chest that I carried along with me and I just couldn’t get rid of it no matter who I turned to and how many articles I read online.
This isn’t easy to deal with. The struggle can seem like it is never going to end. I was broken, I had no self-confidence and I felt so insecure. I honestly felt worthless. In my brokenness, I cried out to God when I had no more hope in anyone or anything, when I just couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t move, couldn’t eat and breathing felt like a great struggle. I didn’t know who else to turn to or where else to go. I felt like it was me against the world. One night, with the very little strength I had while I was lying down in bed, I prayed “God, please take away this weight from my chest. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t carry this burden and pain. Please help me.” That’s what it took for me…one prayer for God to answer. The next morning, although I wasn’t completely free, I felt my weight become a bit lighter and was suddenly amazed.
In the Bible God says, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6). God was the healed me and took away my internal pain. He created you which is why you are unique, loved beyond measure and protected by his grace and mercy. You were created so preciously by him for a reason. Life may be a struggle sometimes and giving up may seem like the best option but you were created for a purpose and do not allow your negative thoughts tell you otherwise. Always remember that there is hope.
Article by Christine A.